Filters have controlled people's
behavior for so long and thoroughly, I have sensed a deep longing for people to
be seen and heard wafting from the collective bones of us—our spirit—when
we encounter an opportunity to bloom.
“If we walk far enough,” says Dorothy, “we will sometime come to someplace.”
“If we walk far enough,” says Dorothy, “we will sometime come to someplace.”
The Wonderful Wizard of Oz
What
I noticed about the Introduction to Storytelling and Solo Performance class I
recently co-produced with Jack Schultz
of Green Shirt Studios, is that
it mimicked the audience's reaction to Jack Schultz's solo
performance I’m
Falling in Love All the Time that same evening—a hunger to witness and
speak from the heart.
As terrified as many of the students were in the solo class, they found ways to courageously share by assisting each other and letting themselves freely speak. When the solo performance ended and loved ones told of their experiences with those who had suffered from addiction, the thread weaving through Jack’s deeply personal story, the communal connection in the room was palpable. Compared to the communal disconnection often felt either in person or on social media, the transformative power of the type of engagement that occurred in both the storytelling class and the after-solo discussion could not be missed.
As terrified as many of the students were in the solo class, they found ways to courageously share by assisting each other and letting themselves freely speak. When the solo performance ended and loved ones told of their experiences with those who had suffered from addiction, the thread weaving through Jack’s deeply personal story, the communal connection in the room was palpable. Compared to the communal disconnection often felt either in person or on social media, the transformative power of the type of engagement that occurred in both the storytelling class and the after-solo discussion could not be missed.
“He is my dog, Toto,”
answered Dorothy. “Is he made of tin or stuffed?” asked the Lion. “Neither. He’s
a…a…a…meat dog,” said the girl.
The Wonderful Wizard of Oz
I witnessed those who thought they'd never be able to tell a story in the class and people in the audience overcome entrenched public speaking shyness/anxiety to find their voices. And after doing what had been personally considered out of an individual's scope of practice, there came a collective, joyous spike in awakeness, awareness, alertness, and humanness that I'll never forget.
At
the end of the evening, I checked in with Jack, as a primary component of his
solo expression is revealing the grief he carries after losing his brother to a
heroin overdose. In his performance, he shares this question “What do we
do with the love for the people we’ve lost?” Walking up to Jack, he grinned
without speaking. I was struck by how joyous he appeared after opening his
heart to a room full of strangers.
“How
do you feel?” I asked, though it seemed a redundant question.
“You have plenty of
courage, I am sure,” answered Oz. “All you need is confidence in yourself.
There is no living thing that is not afraid when it faces danger. The true
courage is in facing danger when you are afraid, and that kind of courage you
have in plenty.”
The Wonderful Wizard of Oz
Jack’s
joy enveloped his entire body, I could feel him nearly clap with glee. “Great!
It went well, it felt good out there, and I was able to stay present!”
“I was able to stay present.”
When Jack continued, he discussed what that meant—staying present while
trotting a naked heart out into the jungle that is humanity.
“Lions, and tigers,
and bears, ohmy.”
The Wonderful Wizard of Oz
Jack
spoke of how he managed to be present, in
his body while emotionally connecting with other people, not only during
the performance, but also afterward during the open discussion and then with me
when I asked how he felt. He offered compelling testimony of what it might be
like to be real.
“When you are Real
you don’t mind being hurt.”
The Velveteen Rabbit
“Yeah,
it’s hard having those feelings for my brother in front of people, but when I
sense they get it and are following along with me…its freeing and a connection
all at once. I feel more alive.”
My
face must have looked dubious.
“I
won’t say it’s easy. There have been times when I’ve performed this and dialed
it in, the audience got the story and not the emotion. I couldn’t do it. And
that’s okay. It’s part of me learning how to be present.”
Later by email, our conversation moved onto how Jack’s theatrical background and study of the Meisner Approach
may be the grounding wire that’s helping him do this kind of performance work
and stay present in front of an audience. I’m considering signing up for a Meisner
Intensive Class that begins next weekend (12/7/19). The shrieking sound of my inner-freak-out
is likely echoing through this typeface.
Since
the class and performance, Jack’s vibrant, joyous face after spilling his guts
in public has stirred my cup of tea.
“He longed to become
Real, to know what it felt like; and yet the idea of growing shabby and losing
his eyes and whiskers was rather sad. He wished that he could become it without
these.”
The Velveteen Rabbit
Scary.
Unsettling. Stripping the heart down to a naked spirit and exposing it to the
jungle.
That’ll
likely hurt.
My
cup of tea is clearly in motion. I’ll try not to splash the audience—overmuch.
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