A Lingering Moment

I've said good bye so many times

The wave should come naturally

As I walk in the other direction

Leaving tasks and humans in my wake
It should be easy

I was told this is how it is

That life is about leaving

Stay then go

Breathe and stop

It should be easy

By now

Fall leaves when Winter arrives

She doesn't throw a tantrum or cry endlessly

Wailing over another good bye

Instead she sheds naturally in fits and spurts

Until there is nothing left of her at all

It should be easy

Letting go

Watching them fade into their future

Wisping into the next whatever

The smell of them fading last

Until memories are the only hangers-on

It should be easy

By now

I wonder if Fall is crying in subterfuge

Her teardrops the dew 

Mingling in leaves

Those triumphant colors a ruse

While she grieves in private

It should be easy 

I linger for a moment

Begging for subterfuge

The ability to shed

Under a blanket of brightly colored leaves

Until the scent of them fades

 Memories drifing in their wake

It should be easy