A few months later needing another pair of boring flats, I encountered another human I had been avoiding, (the list is quite long), and found yet another pile of shoes to hide behind. After the 3rd repeater nightmare and needing to purchase a pair of not-sexy sandals, my uh-oh radar was on high alert.
I had recently concluded that non-confrontation may appear rather immature if viewed from the other side of a stack of shoes.
No? You think?!
And as I perceived myself as engaged in the pursuit of enlightenment, I begrudgingly surmised there may be another way to behave in the face of someone who really, really doesn't like me.
What will I do?
Since I'm getting good at being in the moment, I probably won’t even notice them.
Yep, I have a killer instinct for this kind of thing.
What will I do?
What do I say?
If I say something, what will they say?
Will it hurt if they throw me to the floor and beat me silly?
The only thing I knew for sure was that I did not want to hide anymore. The objects of my reaction were at the check out for a long time, never noticing my self involved turmoil, going about their business while I hyper-ventilated into an upright, though vegetative stupor. The portal doors closed and the moment passed leaving me in exactly the same place, with exactly the same result, minus the intention.
After purchasing another pair of ugly shoes I pondered what could have been done differently. Immediately the cherubic face of the Dalai Lama pops in place. The evening before I had heard a recording of him and his voice envelopes me now.
“Blind faith is exactly that; blind! Skepticism is good thing. Always ask questions from quiet place, still mind, peaceful heart.”
A sense of knowing arrives. Quiet place, still mind, peaceful heart; ask question.
“Now Deb, what would you do if you ran into those people?”
The words come clearly to me,
“I would say hi and ask them how they are doing and tell them it is surprising to see them and that I hope they bought a really great pair of shoes.”
I actually feel a sense of peace in finding a solution to the question.
What will I do if I run into someone who doesn't like me?
I will open the vastness of my quiet place, with a still mind and peaceful heart and the answer will step smartly forward, like a hot gal in a new pair of shoes.